Shifted.

I have shifted (again).

http://organisedchaoss.wordpress.com/

See you there! :)


Love love,
Min

F*cking get lost.

F*cking pissed.

Stop f*cking irritate me, acting like you did work when all you give me is f*cking shit.

Stop f*cking tell me what to do, because I know better and yes, I do it better.

Stop f*cking throw bombs at me 8 hours before our presentation when it is your f*cking job, not mine, and for all you know, I'll probably did 90% of this entire project.

Please, however, go back to your country and get out of my sight.


Thank goodness this entire project will end within 12 hours but don't f*cking think I'll be nice 'cause I'm so going to f*ck you guys upside down this time.

PS. I am not usually like that. No, I correct myself, I am never like that. I am always ms politically correct and relax-let-it-go. But f*ck, you really pissed me off this time. Grr.

UG @ Rain (again)

I am supposed to be (i) mailing my customers, (ii) working on my project, (iii) finishing my general bio assignment, or at the very least, (iv) having my lunch.

But here I am doing what I do best, distracted and procrastinating, resisting the temptation to set up a wordpress account so my two blogs (ilurvetoshop and this) can be merged as one again.

I figure posting a new entry takes less time. So here goes! The prowess of my much loved Fuji, which I haven't been exploiting much 'cause I am clueless and am on auto 90% of the time. And of course, plus the best company ever.

The girls! Ting missing in action. Hope everything's fine already!

Me and 'scheming' MQ. I am beginning tosuspect that I really do have a big face/head.

Geo loves me, and I love her!
And MDS and LRH totally rock. :)
(And yes, my attempt to edit my essay in a noisy ktv pub is totally fruitless.)

Photo whoring!
The MQ pose and our attempts at taking
big eyes shot, acting sexy and acting cute.
(The last 2 are top picks of Geo, her other hot
favourites are act 'dao' and act bored. Heh.)

Our Xi Nu Ai Le. I talked with my boobs. Haha.

A very bad attempt of XNAL from the guys.

And this pic! Simply because Fang looks absolutely
great in this pic and the colour of this pic's so yummy!
I look like some intimidated fan who had just ask for a signature.

Me and my man.




I kinda like this feeling. :)

School blues and love bubbles.

I just wrote a long piece ranting about this project group that's driving me nuts.

Deleted it 'cause I'm feeling much better after complaning twice, once to Xiang and once to Collin. Gee* Sorry, you guys just called me when I am at my piss-iest.


So many things, so little time. Sigh.
I need to work harder and faster.
Good luck to all you poor souls slogging for your exams/tests/quizzes/projects/essays/what-nots. :)


You feel love, breathe love, only because love lies in your heart.
It's a thin line we thread.
When love cease to exist, the 'love bubble' pops and you'll soon realise it has always been air that we're breathing.

It's cute - ugly but adorable!

To say that democracy exists in my house is akin to claiming that meritocracy prevails in Singapore.

A big fallacy.

My dad had nonchalantly said to us earlier that we can design our own rooms. Now, he decided to withdraw, or maybe he 'forgot', that offer and is leaving it all to the designer. He said to me "don't worry, it will be a pleasant surprise". Hmph. Better be.

I mean wokay, I'm not the one footing the bill ultimately but I will be the one who will be living in that room the next 5-6 years at least. Bleah.

My family is also hierarchical, just like how Singapore pretends it isn't patriarchal. It's appalling sometimes but we swallow it to preserve the peace and harmony. It's rojak, not melting pot; and it gets on my nerve. Boo. I should stop whining and talk about happier stuff like..

I got a new camera, Fujifilm FinePix F31 fd!
Thanks CS for his endless advice and having to bear with my constant i-know-it-is-good-but-why-is-it-so-ugly whinings.

He knows he is ugly. So don't make him sad anymore.

Me? I embrace it! You gonna give it to him really. I haven't got round to playing around with the settings. But based on my very limited and surface knowledge of aperture, shutter speed and iso (sorry I failed you, CS), I achieved this! (Yes, no post processing.)

I am not naked btw. It's a tube dress lar.
Nothing too amazing at 1st glance. But if you had seen how dark the room was, you'll be a convert too! We took this under extremely low light condition and the room looks damn bright lar. I swear the room is like 5 times darker than this. No flash either. I don't know how the photo can turned out like that.

I wished the photo can be brighter and more saturated though, like Canon. But wells, you can't have the best of both worlds. Canon probably cannot produce such a photo in the 1st place given such light condition.

You have to see how people rave about this cam. They make it sound like it is the best thing that ever happen to PnS cameras.

"Eeks, but it is uglyyy!"

Now I can flick my hair and say,
"Eeks, you are freaking shallow."

Heh. I am one happy girl. And CS, thanks loads once again!!! Buy you liang teh if you still don't recover by the next time I see you. Heh.

I need an attitude change.

UG @ Timbre

A simple meetup between 2 members (i.e. Qi and Geo) of the group, plus an innocent catalyst (i.e. Fang) always evolved into a full group (i.e. UG) gathering somewhere.

That of course is insufficient without a procastinator in action (that's yours truly) and several "death" threats from Ting,

"Wah lau, the whole group is here lor. Except for YOU!!!"

Urg.

Our initial plan to go Rain (some ktv pub) to finish up that half bottle of Chivas didn't came through. And my dear friends were kind enough to go somewhere near SMU 'cause Collin and I were there trying to make me do my essay (double sigh). But I think it is also because they know I wouldn't go if it is somewhere not within walking distance.

So anyway, we ended up at Timbre and I like the place and the lead singer (because he has really angular jaws) and the thin crust pizza (oooh) minus the ants and the mosquitoes.

Everything was the usual. Great chill out session with my favourite people. And a "sibei boliao (in Sam's words)" game between Meiqi (ok, i really rather call you this than 'Qi') and I.

PROJECT S rocks my socks!
(Meiqi!!!! Socks! Sock! Stock! Stocked! Stockings! Stalk! Stalked! Stalking!) Erhem. I can't help it. Hahahahaha.

We are ostracised! Only 3 of us are on this Side of the table.


The other Side of the table, along with Ting and Sam.That's Six of them.


The couples. :)

(Meiqi! We are reserving a Space for you, with a much better guy that will come along slowly but surely!)

Shamelessly affectionate folks. Heh.


Random pointless Shots - courtesy of Ting


Joe actually looks quite cute when he's not doing his all funny expressions.

I don't know why I feel motherly in this Shot.


OMG! I have Scheming friends!! Mq likes to lean back to make her head looks Smaller, which effectively made my head 1.5 times bigger than hers in this Shot. -_-"


I tried to lean back on the Second attempt and it caused me to have double chin. Eekksss. I don't know which one is worst - double chin or bigger head. Mq, Scheming!


While I have Some Scheming friends (wahaha), most of my friends are nice.


Some pretend to be nice. Then...


'Nuff Said. Haha.



See you guys at Rain next to finish that Chivas. :)

OH! A final S.

SPARTANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!


P.S. My Casio served me well last night. Didn't have to do any tweaking on all the above photos. Maybe it knows I am gonna replaced it with a new one soon. (Still trying to convince myself that Fujifilm is not THAT ugly. If I get a Canon or Sony, you can call me shallow.)

my biggest boo boo

omg. things can't get any more embarassing than this.
gimme a hole and i'll plant my head straight into it.

minutes ago, this guy - which i have thought to be my junior from band; which i have been smiling to since last semester; which i spent a good 5 mins talking about everything and anything under the assumption that he is the said junior - just revealed that he is NOT the guy i thought he is.

turns out he is the older brother whom i swear is a splitting image of my junior.

my god. so embarassing!

BF and UG.

I dragged Collin to a symphony orchastra concert yesterday to complete this 200-800 words essay. Urg.

(Go into more details later when I feel better. Just got pissed off by said guy. Hmph.)

Anyhow, we two poor souls, who are extremely sleepy after what seems like a 2hours lullaby, got dragged to meet the rest of gang. Urps, I couldn't tell if it is peer pressure or moral obligation. Heh. But, BUT (pre-empting violent reactions from the rest), I didn't regret going! Even though I almost fell asleep once or twice on the pretty chairs at Barfly.

The decor of Barfly is really baroque-inspired! I want my room to be like that! Shall convince my dad to buy me a black chandelier. I wannnntttt!!

I will be uploading more pics when I have time. Here's just one to show how crazy Ting got, how Fang kept her cool in all the madness, how Geo readily assumed her narcissistic tendencies, how I always play along and how terrified Meiqi was. Heh.

We are meeting damn often these days. And I really enjoy them all.

When's the next meet up!?

Crossing my fingers. I can do this!

Wish me plenty of luck and pray for me please!

Seize the day!

I watched a really inspiring video in class yesterday. It isn't really related to our coursework but my very nice Korean lecturer took one hour of his precious seminar time to show it us nonetheless.

It's this speech from some (probably big shot) guy at National Geographic. He talks about the 4 key factors to succeed:

Passion
Vision
(I didn't catch the 3rd; maybe Technique or something like that)
Creativity

With passion and vision, commitment and discipline will follow effortlessly.
You need to work on your technique to be ready when opportunities arise.
And that sometimes, the answer is just around us if we open our eyes and change our perspective. (He is talking about photography so to him, the difference between a very good shot and a good shot is sometimes a matter of milimetres.)

There is one message that really hits home for me.

"There is more than one solution to The Answer. "

We may not be always taking a smooth ride to whatever we want in life. But we can hone our perseverance, we may take a longer and bump-ier ride but we'll be there eventually and the process may make us much better persons.

Hmmm...

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Ting! Congrats, you are a certified driver now!! Looking forward to a rideeeeee!

And god bless the man/woman who returned my laptop. My heart nearly stopped. Thank goodness indeed. Bless you bless you bless you!

Alright, off to another mad day in school.

Never give up.

They tell you - when life throws lemons at you, make lemonade?

This semester's beginning to mirror the previous where you find yourself terribly busy and all worn out; and where the amount of effort you put in simply do not churn out the expected results.

So we making lemonade yo?

Shan't let that be a self fulfilling prophecy and pledged to push myself harder (even if I don't go for honours). It is one of those vulnerable days where I need to prove to myself that I can succeed if I put my heart to it.

At this juncture, a little motivation never hurts. I get mine at a cheap price of 45cents, and it almost never fail to give me a morale boost.

I am still holding on to my dreams.

I've splurge. Urps.

Forgive me, (insert some higher power entities), I've splurged.

See, I shop a decent lot. But I have my threshold for certain things, especially clothes since most are overrated and overpriced*. And LRH makes this point all the more clear to me.

But this one, I can't help it.


I don't know why i like it so much.
Maybe, it matches my I-am-a-slippers-kind-of-person personality.
And maybe i should head back to Zara to get the tee inside too - comfy and cheappp.

I wanna shoppppp moreeee.


*Advert: Little Red Heels don't do that! Heh. We promises style at super affordable prices. Bottomline is really not our biggest concern. :)

playing the devil's advocate

you can't stop when the siren goes off.

you either make it or break it.

it's difficult when I can't read things.
because skepticism always gets the better of me.

that's only because it is better to face up to things
than to be in denial that life is picture perfect.

make it?
break it?

this funny thing called love.

sometimes we hold on too tight
'cause we are afraid to lose something
- but because we do
- we lose it.

sometimes we hang on too loose
'cause we are afraid to fall too deep
and hence getting hurt
- but because we do
- we lose it.

sometimes we just want to let go
to protect, to preempt
- but because we do
- we lose it.


Meng told me it is easy to fall in love, but difficult to maintain love. I think love is about striking a balance - a hypersensitive scale that tips whenever one party falls into negligence.

In my opinion,
the 1st case is silly,
the 2nd is sad and
the 3rd foolish.

Which one are you?

shapes

Can a square ever fit into a circle?

Or is it that the circle has
lost the will to expand
so as to accomodate the squareness?

Or has the circle forgotten
to appreciate the differences
of the squareness in the first place?


I crave some romance in my life.
or is it too much to ask for?

Happy 20-something to me!

Happy 20-something birthday to me! :)

From this day on, I have officially join the "20something" club and my age's a secret. On hindsight, I wonder what I've accomplished in the past 20-something years of my life.

Well, just last year, I finally own a dog whom I love lots.
The same year, i.e. 2006, I started Little Red Heels with Xiang.
3 years ago, I got into a university that I so want to get out of now.
5 years ago, I got to know a bunch of really cool classmates at AJ.
7 years ago, I got into a relationship which is still going strong now.
9 years ago, I pledged a lifelong friendship to my very much loved UG.

And of course, my family and those who love me and whom I didn't love back enough for my past 20something years.

Now that doesn't seem so bad. My biggest accomplishment is growing into the kind of person I am today. (So it is just too bad if you don't like me.)

Let's do something interactive here. Heh. I don't know if much people reads this blog anymore but it will really be nice if you leave a comment stating one or more adjectives describing me, in YOUR opinion. (Leave leh, treat it as my lil birthday, erm, present, you stingy face. Heh, I am joking la, I love youuu.)

My birthday wish this year isn't any different from all others. It's my birthday resolution that has a larger significance. Here's it.


This is a pictorial representation of my life as how I see it.

And this is what I hope for before 2008 arrives.

See, it doesn't have to be a perfect fit. But at least to pack things up, to feel a lot more in control and to know exactly what I want.

Heh. I must be experiencing some form of one-fifth life crisis. *smile*

Anyhow, birthday is boring this year 'cause I am stuck with two freaking essays which is due immediately after term break. (This means I shouldn't be blogging now really, nor launching a new series on LRH that needs much attending to.)

I spent the first hours of my birthday playing mahjong at Collin's house, with Hongchoo and Sooting. Heh. That's my first chocolate truffles cake of the day (from Secret Recipe).

Slept in till about 3pm (*goodness). Then had my 2nd round of chocolate truffles cake (from The Royal) with my sis and Jaime.

Lastly, following the rhythm of the entire day, we had Subway for dinner. Collin got me a denim jacket from Buffalo which is too big so we'll probably need to go back and exchange for something else. Thanks anyhow, darling.

Pardon me for looking very out-of-bed in all the pictures above. I told you it's a very boring birthday. No dressing up or whatsoever.

So that's it. Happy 20something to me. *bored out*

P.S. My phone has been sent to the repair. So pardon me if I didn't reply your very sweeeeet and kind smses 'cause I am kinda phoneless at the moment. It's really nice to be remembered anyhow. Thank you thank you thank you. Loads of love. :)

stupid stupid stupid

when the girlfriend is pissed, the boyfriend should never leave the girlfriend alone for too long. 'cause the girlfriend will simply walk around sulking and grow extremely unpleased by the seconds.

sometimes the girlfriend don't want to think rationally nor reasonably, the girlfriend just want the boyfriend to give in and say something nice instead of flaring up himself.


BGRs are stupid.

Happy CNY!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, ALL!!

This CNY can get more boring. Visited random houses, played a few games of blackjack and basically grew sick at the sight of cny goodies. Bleah.

It is proven that oxens shouldn't be doing any sort of gambling this year. The only game I won some buckaroos was at Geo's house where the oxens play amongst themselves. So that became more like a game of who's more unlucky. The rest of the games I won nothing (and lost almost nothing) despite the few hours of play. Like huh.

Call me a whiner. The two essays that is due right after term break isn't making things better really.

Gimme a breakieeee. I am in a constant need of getaways.


Escape. Nope. Face it.

Fatigue.

I am god damn tired, but I can't sleep. I'm having a 20% test tomorrow and I haven't touch anything at all.

Life these days goes completely against the meaning of this blog address. Collin and I are both so busy that we haven't had time to plan for V-day, or even buy each other presents. As a matter of fact, I didn't even think of what to get for him for V-day.

Sigh sigh sigh.

My only escapade is in indulging in my lil world of photoshopping. (Yes, even littleredheels stresses me out as much as I enjoy doing it.) I like the feeling of empowerment and creating something that uniquely mine.

Anyhow, I showed Collin the half done blogskin and vain boy thinks he looks ugly in the picture above (which I secretly agree, he got an or-ba-ka on his left eye). So he selected another picture and like it so much that I made a wallpaper out of it.

Here's another word(s) that I like alot - sui generis.

P.S.: Just a random addendum. I always thought Collin and I are complementary in many ways. He likes all the food I don't like (e.g. beef, potatoes, egg yolk), and I like all the food he doesn't like (e.g. cheese, egg white). He is a super realist and me an all-time idealist. Even when it comes to English, I know a lot more words than he does and while he do not understand those words, he is able to pronounce them effortlessly and I can't (I am real bad at figuring pronunciations).

Sometimes I wonder if we are indeed complementary or simply polar opposites. Time will tell. Right now, we are happily happity do!

P.P.S.: Yes, m-w.com is my bible. Thank God for its pronounciation function. :)

Reminiscene: AJ days

A "cute" pic taken back in AJ days. I smiled funny but there's something sweet about this shot nonetheless.

(On the first day of school, I told my classmates Collin and I were twins and they actually believed it. Heh.)

And yes, I clipped his hair. I remember having an obsession with hair clips then and had them in a complete rainbow collection (and of different sizes).

Actually, I have an obsession with having things in all sorts of colours - like I used to have at least 15 "CLEAN COLOR" markers (those markers with 2 tips at its ends and come in all kinds of pretty shades).

That was JC. And when I finally became a Topshop person, I "collected" their singlets and racer-backs, and have at least ten pieces of them.

Crazy. At least I've outgrown those days.
These days, variety rocks my socks.

EEKS!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEekssssssssss!

A freaking cockcroach just crawled on my right leg.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEekssssssssss!

Welcome!

welcome, you curious fellas!

the blog skin is still under construction so bear with it till I have more time at hand.

i am not supposed to procastinate important matters remember?


self discipline. prioritising. urg.
it's an uphill path ahead.

Procastinate no more.

My procastination costs me not just time, but money.

I've just burn a few hundreds due to my procastination.
I am also opting out of the family trip this coming CNY 'cause I can't finish the huge amount of work at hand. :(
Every week, I burn a few tens of dollars on cabbing so that I won't turn up too late for classes.

I never learned.


Let's start trying to change.
Like real efforts.

This 2007 will be a rocking one! :)

Pendulum no more.

These days, I am a walking contradiction.

My thoughts sway like a pendulum. Some days I feel strongly that I should go for honours, others I feel like throwing in the towel and want to just freaking stop being such a IN CASE person.

Today, it dawned upon me that perhaps I shouldn't give it TOO much of a thought and just let nature takes it course. I supposed the answer will be apparent when the time comes. :)

finally shifted :)

I always end up with funny urls.

First, ilovetoshop became iLURVEtoshop (which proves to be a major faux pas).

Then a simple "carpe diem" became carpe-diem7, simply because neither carpediem nor carpe-diem is available. End up having to insert my favourite number, i.e. 7, at the end of the phrase. Oh wells, at least it's much better than urps, lurve. *blushes

New blog url means a new blogskin. Will get cracking, erm, soon.


Till then, loveeeee.